Post by windrider86 on Apr 22, 2011 14:32:27 GMT -5
Well, I told you I was writing some fanfics, and finally I decided to post here my first one. It's a bit short and I know I surely can do it better, but anyway, I hope you'll like it
The other Lisa Simpson
That’s how they sometimes call me, but that ain’t true. I'm just Lisa’s friend... or that's what I’d like to believe. When we met for the first time, I thought I had finally found a true friend, but time has passed, and distance has grown between us.
“Hey, you still think we can be friends?” “Only if we’re the best”
Well, Lisa… I’m afraid one of us has fallen behind… and I’m afraid that one is me. I can’t… I can’t stand it anymore… It’s too much pressure for me; I just can’t bear it… For Lisa, being a model student, trying to improve every day, achieving new goals... is a challenge, a motivation. For me, it is an obligation; it has always been. It wasn’t enough being a good student; I had to be the best one. It wasn’t enough to be a good girl; I had to be perfect.
It has always been this way since I can remember; I know my parents worry about me, and they want to give me all the best... but they never ask me what I want. And I just want to be normal, only that... It is too much what I’m asking for?
If anybody thinks I’m weeping while I write these words… well, you’re right. I can’t hold back my tears. Right now, my parents are arguing about something. Again. I think they’re talking of moving to another city. One more… Belfast, Boston, New York, Springfield… Please, not again… And yes, it’s true: Belfast. I was born in Northern Ireland, though it seems I’m American. I don’t know, and I don’t care. I just want to stay in a city, or in a town, and live a normal life…
But that doesn’t matter. My voice does never matter. Just my grades, my saxophone solos, and my good manners; that's all what counts. That’s what my parents truly want. They know what is the best for me... just what they want.
My whole life is a big schedule: every minute of my time is carefully planned. How can you call that a life? From home to school, from school to home… in both places I’m unhappy. I try to smile, yes, but that’s only a facade, most of the times… Eating an ice cream, going to the beach, playing in the snow… that’s what makes me really happy; the most common things in life. The things that make any kid happy… And of course, those are the things I can rarely enjoy.
Who I am, really? The brilliant A+ student and saxophonist, always smiling and raising her hand whenever the teacher asks a question? Or maybe the poor and sad little girl who quietly cries every night in her bed, silently complaining about her empty and meaningless life?
I know I should dare to tell my parents what I really feel, but… would it be worth while? Would they listen to me or would they just tell me I’m just a child who doesn’t know what does she want? It wouldn’t be the first time, of course… But how can they know better than me what do I want? I want to be happy, and I’m not happy with my life! I can’t be happy with my life! I need a change!
But… how I’m gonna do it?
An important question, for sure… I just got no idea of what I should do. Mmm… maybe I could ask Lisa… Yes, that’s what I’m gonna do; maybe my parents can control me when I’m at home, but they can’t do it when I’m at school… yet. I’m pretty sure Lisa will help me as soon as I tell her about my worries; I bet she already knows something bad is happening to me… I only hope nobody finds out she’s helping me; last thing I’d want is Lisa getting into trouble by my fault.
I need to calm down a bit… I hope a warm bath will help me. It’s still Saturday evening; I’ve got enough time to think on my plan ‘til Monday comes, but now I need to relax. If the bath is not enough, I’m sure listening to my Enya CDs after dinner will soothe my soul… “Shepherd Moons”, “The Memory of Trees”… I got to thank Lisa for giving them to me … it wasn’t even my birthday… It’s truly the best present someone has ever given me, besides my pendant…
Phew… Too much things on my head… That can’t be good for a seven year-old girl. It won’t be good for anyone, I guess.
Well… I don’t know how things will end, but I do know one thing. It’s something I’ve got in common with Lisa; something that both of us have learned pretty well. Each one by a different way, but that doesn’t matter. We know it for sure: being a child prodigy is no bliss.
Allison Elaine Taylor
The other Lisa Simpson
That’s how they sometimes call me, but that ain’t true. I'm just Lisa’s friend... or that's what I’d like to believe. When we met for the first time, I thought I had finally found a true friend, but time has passed, and distance has grown between us.
“Hey, you still think we can be friends?” “Only if we’re the best”
Well, Lisa… I’m afraid one of us has fallen behind… and I’m afraid that one is me. I can’t… I can’t stand it anymore… It’s too much pressure for me; I just can’t bear it… For Lisa, being a model student, trying to improve every day, achieving new goals... is a challenge, a motivation. For me, it is an obligation; it has always been. It wasn’t enough being a good student; I had to be the best one. It wasn’t enough to be a good girl; I had to be perfect.
It has always been this way since I can remember; I know my parents worry about me, and they want to give me all the best... but they never ask me what I want. And I just want to be normal, only that... It is too much what I’m asking for?
If anybody thinks I’m weeping while I write these words… well, you’re right. I can’t hold back my tears. Right now, my parents are arguing about something. Again. I think they’re talking of moving to another city. One more… Belfast, Boston, New York, Springfield… Please, not again… And yes, it’s true: Belfast. I was born in Northern Ireland, though it seems I’m American. I don’t know, and I don’t care. I just want to stay in a city, or in a town, and live a normal life…
But that doesn’t matter. My voice does never matter. Just my grades, my saxophone solos, and my good manners; that's all what counts. That’s what my parents truly want. They know what is the best for me... just what they want.
My whole life is a big schedule: every minute of my time is carefully planned. How can you call that a life? From home to school, from school to home… in both places I’m unhappy. I try to smile, yes, but that’s only a facade, most of the times… Eating an ice cream, going to the beach, playing in the snow… that’s what makes me really happy; the most common things in life. The things that make any kid happy… And of course, those are the things I can rarely enjoy.
Who I am, really? The brilliant A+ student and saxophonist, always smiling and raising her hand whenever the teacher asks a question? Or maybe the poor and sad little girl who quietly cries every night in her bed, silently complaining about her empty and meaningless life?
I know I should dare to tell my parents what I really feel, but… would it be worth while? Would they listen to me or would they just tell me I’m just a child who doesn’t know what does she want? It wouldn’t be the first time, of course… But how can they know better than me what do I want? I want to be happy, and I’m not happy with my life! I can’t be happy with my life! I need a change!
But… how I’m gonna do it?
An important question, for sure… I just got no idea of what I should do. Mmm… maybe I could ask Lisa… Yes, that’s what I’m gonna do; maybe my parents can control me when I’m at home, but they can’t do it when I’m at school… yet. I’m pretty sure Lisa will help me as soon as I tell her about my worries; I bet she already knows something bad is happening to me… I only hope nobody finds out she’s helping me; last thing I’d want is Lisa getting into trouble by my fault.
I need to calm down a bit… I hope a warm bath will help me. It’s still Saturday evening; I’ve got enough time to think on my plan ‘til Monday comes, but now I need to relax. If the bath is not enough, I’m sure listening to my Enya CDs after dinner will soothe my soul… “Shepherd Moons”, “The Memory of Trees”… I got to thank Lisa for giving them to me … it wasn’t even my birthday… It’s truly the best present someone has ever given me, besides my pendant…
Phew… Too much things on my head… That can’t be good for a seven year-old girl. It won’t be good for anyone, I guess.
Well… I don’t know how things will end, but I do know one thing. It’s something I’ve got in common with Lisa; something that both of us have learned pretty well. Each one by a different way, but that doesn’t matter. We know it for sure: being a child prodigy is no bliss.
Allison Elaine Taylor